This is a kinda serious vent post so don’t read it if you don’t wanna hear me ramble about stuff that’s been bothering me.
As you all know I love posting dumb submissions here on Newgrounds, but sometimes I have the paranoid feeling of a lot of people disliking me for making stuff that’s admittedly kinda cringe sometimes. I mean sure it may seem like it but I am not a little kid doing dumb bullshit on the internet, I am a stupid guy trying to live his life and share his odd humor with his friends here on NG.
For those who dislike me for who I am or what I create:
(Check out the bold text in the section “Long Story Short” if you do legitimately dislike me.)
I am sorry if some of the stuff I make is not your thing sometimes. The reason I make a lot of weird submissions is simply because I may find it funny, or more commonly I am talking to a good friend of mine and we start joking which leads to me making something really stupid. One example being “In loving memory of shrek…” which is just an obnoxious game where you control shrek going through a maze whilst constantly changing sizes which is really annoying. I occasionally make things that others find to be really dumb, pointless, and shitty. But most of my submissions (if not all) are nothing but jokes that no one except for me and my friends get. But I constantly get the feeling that people hate my guts and it makes me feel terrible. This is one of the reasons I’ve slowed down ever since Money Man, and even I don’t think that game is good. But trust me, eventually in the future once I’m out of what I call the “Learning Phase” in which I am currently in I will try my best to make much more enjoyable and fun games and/or animations that everyone will like, just give me some time to learn how to do things, but in the meantime I will be making these really dumb submissions until I can finally make something really cool, just be patient!
To those who support my work and love what I make:
Please, please tell me if you like the content I create or not cause I feel down about it sometimes and I am beginning to consider quitting or just changing everything about me completely. But if you do like what I make, I really can’t appreciate it enough, but I have one thing I’d like to mention, I don’t like the following I have on this site. I feel as if there are so much more talented people other than me that deserve what I have. I just don’t think I deserve the amount of support I get for my low quality work. Whilst yes it’s kinda my style I just think that it’s really dumb… I do appreciate all 1k of you but I wish that you’d support some other talented creators that can do what I do except better. Thing is, I don’t want you to take this the wrong way either cause I love all of you and I hope that you stick around for my future creations. So hopefully you all understand why I feel this way.
Long story short:
I feel misunderstood and like people hate me for being myself sometimes and I feel like I might wanna quit. Although the stuff I make is dumb it’s just me practicing to get better, slowly but surely I plan on making really cool content for everyone to enjoy. But in the meantime I’ll continue to make what I make and do what I do for now and do what I enjoy along with collaborating with friends to make some neat stuff. I encourage those who do dislike me to reach out to me on here or on Discord about it, I won’t get mad I’d just like to see your perspective. And to my friends and fans, I love all of you guys and I hope that you have a great day/night, take care! <3 <3 <3
(Since I am tired and this may be all over the place, feel free to contact me if I said something odd or if you are confused about something.)